So...now what?

Due to the history making of my last awkwardly personal blog, it only seems right to continue along the same lines with my next one.
What made history? That blog had the most views in 24 hours since the beginning of my blog. So thanks guys and I'm sure it was only because you all really love my writing style and not at all because you are all a big bunch of snoops!! ;)

So I have reached the point in time after a break up where I have to rethink my plans, for, oh I don't know...the rest of my life. You aren't meant to do it, but after three years in a relationship I had a little more than the next 5 years mapped out...and now what? My plans can't just be to finish off every episode of every show I have ever wanted to watch. But god damn it I can try lol.

One thing people like to do when they hear you are no longer in a relationship is cheer you up with the positives of it all. Sometimes those are the last things that you want to hear. But at other times, it can be just what you need.

Positives of being a single girl:

- You have more time to focus on your friendships
- Your personal style is only determined by you and how you feel in it
- You don't have to watch boy movies/sport
- You can commit to more study and the time involved with the same
- All money saved from work goes to you
- You can move in with a girlfriend and style the apartment as girly as you would like
- You can openly join in on the perving sessions your friends have on a night out
- You will at some stage experience a first date and a first kiss again
- You can't plan a certain aspect of your life, leaving mystery and excitement

And a whole lot more.

At first I felt some guilt trying to look at the positives. As if it was a big slap in the face to him for trying to look forward to a life without him in it. But really, what are you supposed to do if not exactly that? Sure there are negatives to being single...having to bother to shave your legs, having to go on dates and finding out they are psychopaths, loneliness, and lots and lots of self doubt....

But I am 21!? One of the nurses at work said "OH! you are only 21?! You are a baby! Sure, if you were 35 I would be depressed for you...but you aren't..."

So now I have to work things out for myself...am I going to go back to university? Am I going to stay in the area I currently live in? How the hell will I know when I am ready to go on a date again? What are the things I should do now before I do meet the guy I am actually going to be with for the rest of my life? What if I don't meet him?

Thanks for reading. And thanks again for all of the messages I have been getting xx Love you guys :)