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Ok.

So I have decided I may actually be the most emotional person in the world. 

Not only do I read way too much into other people's body language and signals. 

But at the slightest bit of connection to someone, I turn into a blithering idiot. 

The surgeon?

I am pretty sure I made it all up in my head.

To the point where he may or may not be avoiding eye contact with me. 

Just call me Bridget Jones..

Did I mention I met up with someone else from Tinder?

Well he turned out to be a psychopath didn't he!?! BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING CLINICALLY WRONG WITH ME.

Ok. So now that I have calmed down. After a wine...or maybe five....Can I just send out a little plea to the other girls out there who might be reading this?

Are you just as emotionally crippled as me?

Do you get emotional at greeting cards?

Have you ever cried watching an RSPCA ad?

Have you ever heard a really sad song come on the radio and looked out the window and pretended you were in a music video? No? Just me.

Fine. Fuck you guys...

;) 

Life can really be exhausting can't it? And I know I am more emotional than others...but it is my job to look after people at the worst part of their lives. Was I ridiculous in choosing something that would effect me to the point of weeping in the elevator on the way back to the ward from dropping off a patient to emergency surgery? 

WHY COULDN'T I BE A STEWARDESS? They do night shifts. And get to travel. And clean toilets and bring people food. BUT THEY GET TO WEAR LIPSTICK. 

Just something to think about.....

But yesterday a patient said I was such a lovely, bubbly and beautiful person and there should be more people like me in the world and I thought "maybe....just maybe this really is what I was meant to do". 

And now the big joke of it all is that I have been thinking more and more about wanting to become a midwife. 

I have just told you that I think I am the most emotional person in the world.

How will I cope in being part of the most important day of people's lives? 

Bloody hell...

But can you imagine looking at these all day?