But it is about the love we deserve...
(insert nausea here)
I am a thorough believer that somewhere out there there is a person for each and every one of us. Not necessarily just one person. Because If I genuinely believed that, I would adopt my 10 cats today.
But there is someone out there, or someones, that we can mesh with in a way that is chemically irreversible.
An undying, unfaultering and altogether unexplicable connection that we have come to know as 'love'.
Now I can perfectly understand if you are reading this as babble. And that is quite possible since I am onto the red wine tonight. Which makes me overly passionate and emotional about trivial things.
But I just need you all to think about your current relationships. Not just partners. But friendships. Because not only do I believe that there are people out there to love in a sexual and stupidly foolish way. In a way that is designed for us to take a giant leap into nothingness. But there are people out there, who are meant to be in our lives forever as friends.
Recently I think I have discovered my soul mate.
And that is a big statement.
But it is someone I have known since I was 13. I wish I knew then what I know now...yes that was a little bit of a Rod Stewart reference. Can't you tell I'm on the drink!!?
My mother has described finding her soulmate in a workmate she found when she was in her 30s. And listening to her talk about it and the conversations they had really inspired me to search for my own. Not that I have any power over the matter.
My favourite stories involve the times they would make each other laugh to the point of near asphyxiation. And mostly at times where they were meant to be professional and silent.
My mother is a nurse like me. And I think she is honestly where I get most of my traits from and definitely my peculiar sense of humour.
And I thank her every day for that. That ability to laugh in a hospital environment filled with sickness and despair.
But I think I have found my soul mate.
In a friend.
In a close girlfriend who laughs as hard as I do. Who shares a full, hearty, ugly faced laugh where the whole room ceases to matter. Who can grasp the whole concept of a joke I am planning in my head with one glance.
Who will actually sit and take the time to listen to the nonsense I come out with regarding the so called 'drama' of my life.
But it is all so insignificant. Because I have found her. And I am so happy. And dedicate this blog of love and friendship to her. (you may now vomit if you have not already)
Because apparently I am an emotional wreck on red wine.
And I am sorry that this was not the usual qwerky upbeat blog I have been posting lately. But hey, I got inspired. By a trashy tv show. And I have no shame :)
Sar xx
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